Sunrise

Sunrise,

Eyes open to see the grey and dreary world of morning
Beautiful face, beautiful soul, a beautiful girl lingers behind my eyes
Always on my mind, always in my heart
Eyes open to find the world I pray is a nightmare

For a moment it all seems like a dream
That the angel behind my eyes is still mine
The cold reality hits like a tidal wave of iced water
It's real

As I begin to move I feel it again
The throbbing and decaying hold where a pure heart used to be
With every though of the woman the edges burn hotter and the pang of agony shoots through my helpless body

My eyes water but I bite back the tears
My chest burns but I refuse to bend in pain
My soul is wounded but I still carry on
I won't let you see

Your beauty is inches away as always
An angel that was mine, an angel that loved me
An angel that's taken interest in another

A hand I can no longer hold
Hair I can no longer caress
Lips I can no longer kiss
Suffering in my eyes but I won't let you see it all
You see some but not the iceberg beneath the glacial water

Drowning in my own self pity and agony
With no one there to help I've forgotten how to swim
The day goes on and the pain come in random waves
I never know when the next wave will chose to cripple me
I try to breathe and my throat is closed
Closed on the words I can no longer speak

Trapped and caged in my agony while you hold the key
Night falls and the darkness mingles with the darkness in my mind
The pain so intense it feels like a heart attack
Perhaps that would be better
I learn to hide it and smile through it
Your happiness mean more to me than my own

My angel and my demon
My savior and my tormentor
My lover and my betrayer
So many things I wish I could say
So many things I wish I could do

Memories haunt the recesses of my mind
Eyes close to find dreams of happiness
Dreams that don't feel like nightmares
Of a world I wanted, a world I can never have
Sunrise
Eyes open to the living nightmare trapped in the cycle of pain a broken romantic endures
Sunrise